things i may never understand:

1. how is it that when you work so hard for a certain something, putting your whole heart and soul into something despite things
   being so negative all the time, you still lose. no matter how many times you try. but some people just have it so easy.
   they even get second chances to undo the mistakes they once made, how is that even fair? i'd always like to think that things
   happen for a reason, but then doesn't it make you so angry at times? and frankly i'm just tired of using that excuse anymore.
   why why why oh why.
   
   
2. stop making me feel like the route of the problem. this is YOUR problem. i don't even know how i ended up being the scapegoat.
   if it was reasonable, fine i'll take it. BUT IT'S NOT. the world doesn't revolve around you and i have no time to make sure i'm not at a certain place just so you could be there. sick and tired of this. the feeling's mutual. if you want to turn off a friend for something damn (really DAMN) stupid, suke hati kau. 2010 will be a year without you and your stupid childish acts to ruin my days. (haha, frust or whaaaat. this one makes me so damn angry like #$@$&@#$&##!@#!! and yet how stupid it is makes me want to laugh.)
   
   
3. yesterday, my most favourite Levi's watch broke during UT. don't ask me how, but it just did. that depressed me for like 2 minutes. and today, due to having only my red Adidas left, i wore it despite the time being all wrong and it broke while i was.. actually i wasn't doing anything but the strap just broke. HOW SAD IS THATTTT. now i'm officially a watch-less person. i feel so lost without looking at the time. two consecutive days eh, pfft.

bingit bingit bingit!

thank God for my favourite people and the existance of Samba to perk me up today, huh.

@ 11:59 PM

a picture says a thousand words, so i guess this shall explain how my 2009 went. like all the other years that have gone by,
it's as bittersweet as it is. more of bitter? or more of sweet? i can't actually tell. okay, i'm lying. this year was tough, and i really hope 2010 won't be this challenging. underneath all that has happened in the past year, i learnt the meaning of trust, the value of friendship,
and especially love.. for the family, for the friends, for the people i care about the most.

so, my first(s) for the year 2009.. hmm. suntanning (haha), extracting protein from bacteria (and never ever wanna do it again!),
concerts and gigs!, watching Jason Mraz and Oasis live at the Singapore Indoor Stadium, going on the Singapore Flyer, first time eating at Popeyes and loved it, watching an official basketball game at the Indoor Stadium (thanks to RDP), playing the tamborim, bangs (despite everyone telling me not to. hahaha), taking part in NDP and Chingay (got my first YELLOW crocs which i've never used ever since the
last day of Chingay. it's just.. urmm..), coloured contacts (HAHA, one day contacts only), my first Subway experience (of tuna!),
picnic in the rain on my birthday, sleepover with the Bestfriend, getting an iPhone (hehehe), and believe it or not,
having my first try on using a DSLR. woooo. i love Firsts.

most importantly, i'm glad to have held on to the ties that i am still holding onto, you know you people are the ones that get me going
no matter what. what's life without people you love to share it with?

2010 is gonna be a huge year. whatnot with graduation and whatever else that's gonna come which i can't predict. i am scared of the next step but that's part of life isn't it, moving on to the next cycle. but whatever it is, i can't wait. hmmm.

and as they all say, resolutions shall remain a secret :)

@ 1:41 AM